So I’m currently suffering from insomnia, I don’t sleep at all at night. I am getting 3-4 hours sleep napping in the afternoon/early evening. Sometimes my brain races going through stressful or mundane things, sometimes my head is empty but I still cannot sleep…..Read More
Sometimes you just need a change. Sometimes you’re skint. So a free haircut is needed, last night I chopped about 4” off my hair. Snip snip lol! It’s now just at my shoulders, so not too short. To be fair, I did a pretty good job. If I wear it wavy/curled you’ll never know it wasn’t a professional who did it. Although next time I’m at the hairdressers, I will have to ‘fess up!
My head feels so much lighter today and my split ends are all gone.….Read More
Have you heard about Happiful? I recently discovered it and I love it. It's a magazine devoted to Mental Health, brimming with helpful and positive articles.
Happiful describe the magazine as:
We’re on a mission to create a healthier, happier, more sustainable society. Our aim is to provide informative, inspiring and topical stories about mental health and wellbeing. We want to break the stigma of mental health in our society, and to shine a light on the positivity and support that should be available for everyone, no matter their situation.
So not only is it an interesting magazine, which I have found useful, it's completely free online! Wait? What?! I know - It just gets better and better.Read More
Why am I so tired!?!?
At the moment, I seem to be permanently tired, seriously! My change in medication dosage means I do sleep through the night now, but I struggle to get to sleep in the first place. I try each day to then be up by 10am, in the hope I will not make the situation worse. It's like I'm not quite on UK time…..Read More
I just love new shoes! Always have. There's something special about getting new shoes that just puts you in a good mood. As the Paolo Nutini song says:
"I put some new shoes on and suddenly everything is right".
Well, I just got some fabby new shoes! They're from Fitflop and although I mainly bought them because they have shiny rose gold shell-toes, they have turned out to be the best buy for me. They're so comfortable. I've mentioned my sore hips due to weight gain in other posts and the support these give is a real trick.
I have to be honest, the first full day I wore them, they were pretty solid and I got sore legs. But since then they've broken in and are almost like slippers! I could live in them.
AND they were on sale which is just a cherry on top. I bought the black ones but the blush ones are tempting too. Happy Feet = Happy Cat!
As a pale Scot, I enjoy the sunshine in a wary way. My fair skin burns so easily and I have loads of freckles. I use SPF all year round on my face.
I carry sunscreen in my bag throughout the summer in case of a nice day. It's better to be safe than sorry.
One of my biggest bug bears is the sticky hands after application. Particularly because I use factor 30 plus which tends to be thicker and stickier! Gross clammy hands! Using wet wipes helps, but then you get that horrible taste in your mouth if your eating etc.
Well that problem is no longer an issue for me! I've been watching this new show on channel 4 "Buy It Now". The products displayed have been hits and misses, but Solar Buddies has been a knockout!
Solar Buddies is a sunscreen applicator with a unique design aimed for children. It is a refillable applicator that allows you to use any sunscreen of your choice. It has a rollerball surrounded by a sponge, meaning coverage is super easy with no messy hands. I also feel the sunscreen goes further because you know where you have put the lotion and are not over pouring into your hands.
Although designed for children, the small container size fits perfectly in my bag and I now wouldn't be without it. It's my new best friend for sunny days! Even my husband was impressed with it.
I honestly could not recommend this genius product more highly, so give it a shot!
To find out more about Solar Buddies go to www.solarbuddies.co.uk
Yesterday I had a gym induction, this was through the mental health team as mentioned in my Body Image blog post. The guy was really nice and non-judgemental. He works with many people who are referred to him for all kinds of medical reasons.
I was confident swimming was the best place to start, to get me moving and reduce the risk of injury. I was surprised at the other things he recommended: bike, hand bike, yoga, pilates and dance class. I felt that I was capable of turning this situation with my weight around.
So we got me all set up with membership etc. and then I went for a swim. It was like "riding a bike"! I haven't been swimming for about 8 years, but it felt so natural and even with the extra weight, I felt my technique was pretty good. Growing up I swam a lot: taking lessons, swimming for fun, even training in life saving. I've always enjoyed being in the water and it felt great to be back.
I finished off with a Jacuzzi and then sauna. Leaving the centre I felt empowered and ready to make this change for the better. It's the first step on a big journey and I'll keep you posted with my antics and exploration of all the gym has to offer.
Today I'm having a rest day, so just a walk, I can definitely feel my arms and legs were used yesterday!
- What is your favourite exercise?
- What makes you feel empowered and capable?
Let me know.
Tattoos are a great way to express yourself, I have several. Each one is different and has a different meaning/purpose.
The last time I went through therapy and recovered from a phase of depression, I found the words "Thoughts are not facts" particularly helpful. So I got them tattooed on my inside right forearm. That way I can see the words and have a regular reminder.
It's not foolproof, as my depression of this year has demonstrated. But it serves as a comfort and a reminder that my recovery is possible.
I am considering getting another, but will be taking my time to consider what will work best and the placement.
- What tattoos do you have?
- What do you use to inspire better mental health?
I want to know.
I totally support the body positivity movement. Noone should be shamed for the way they look. As a society, the poison of tearing each other down, is just something we should not tolerate. As humans we should treat each other with kindness and support, celebrating similarities and differences.
Recently Jameela Jamil started the #Iweigh campaign where individuals share what they love about their lives, their proudest achievements and not the amount they weigh on a set of scales. I loved this idea, but found I couldn't work out what to post. So I have yet to take part.
Whilst wonderful people like Jameela, Megan Jayne Crabbe (Bodyposipanda) and Ashley Graham (supermodel extraordinaire) share their body positive messages and self love. My body is something I am struggling with, I think it's broken........
My whole life (well since I was 12/13) I have been told I was big/bigger/hippy/fat/overweight. And guess what?! Most of my life I really wasn't, I just was never skinny. Over time hearing the same issues being pointed out, time and time again, I started to believe it. And last week when I saw some old photos, I was shocked at how slender I was! It's incredible how different I felt to how I looked.
What makes that blow land harder is, right now I am fat. It sucks! Last year I put on some weight and was needing to get back into regular exercise. But this year, I have put on three stone!! This is due to my new medication and being sedentary whilst battling my depression.
It's crap, I don't like the way I look at all. I make jokes to mask the low self esteem. I try not to be in pictures, whilst also not making a fuss and pointing it out. It's just the worst.
What am I going to do?
Well, hopefully in a month I'll be changing meds and that should help. But for now I am fortunate that through the mental health team I am seeing, there is a discount for using the local leisure facilities, including a tailored 12 week exercise programme. I have applied and am waiting for my initial appointment. I think swimming is the best way to start, so I have less risk of injury, rather than just going out on a run.
Being able to use my body should bring about results and some endorphins that can also help with the depression. Although it feels right now its going to be such a hard battle. Then seeing some results, I know I will feel better about what I see in the mirror. Then maybe I can get on board with some of this self-love and positivity.